motivation, where did you go?

[mekyria]

This is my last week at work before my maternity leave, aka 20 weeks of baby training and I just can't seem to motivate myself to get stuff finished.

The daily commute is turning into a private hell. That's ten minutes on bike, up the stairs, 50 minutes in one train, ten minute walk, seven minutes in a second train, down the stairs, ten minute walk. By the time I get to the office, my energy is already spend. Sure, it keeps me mobile and my weight gain within boundaries, but it is still exhausting.

My replacement is Roel, who Ihave good faith in on account of I think he's brilliant when it comes to IT security and risk assesments though slightly socially challenged. Like me. I don't feel the need to hand him finished stuff on account of him having to work with it in the next six months when I'm not around, he might as well use his own ideas and policies as a starting point.

Last week I went to the office by car and took a big bag with me with books , certificates and stuff I want to keep. There's no telling whether they will move us around once the reorganisation has settled down so I am suming that everything I leave behind can and will be trashed. It's very refreshing to clean out my workspace.

I have today, tomorrow and Thursday. I will hand out a treat on Thursday by means of a farewell thing, and then I'm taking the afternoon off to go to the movie with Miranda. On account of it being the last time we can go to the movies together in a really long time, once the baby is here I'll work less but am more tied to my office hours and I still have a truckload of free days left that I should use.

I'll be back at work in March, for three days a week. Different world, different coworkers (though I suspect many of the same coworkers too). I find it hard to imagine myself back at work, the birthing thing is kind of looming in the back of my head plus being a mom is something I need to learn. I am not a natural at caregiving, that's for sure.

Comments

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

Stupid question: is it hard to ride a bike when heavily pregnant?

Enjoy your weeks of pre-baby time, I am sure you will find lots to do and by the time that baby is ready to come out you will be so happy for it to happen. It's an exciting new journey for you and E both!

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

Stupid question: is it hard to ride a bike when heavily pregnant?

Enjoy your weeks of pre-baby time, I am sure you will find lots to do and by the time that baby is ready to come out you will be so happy for it to happen. It's an exciting new journey for you and E both!

[mekyria.livejournal.com]

it's not a stupid question! Due to the pelvis becoming softer, riding a regular bike gets harder (I quit riding my folding bike around week 24). But! I have a bike with a lady saddle: it's wider, padded and it feels like sitting on a barstool. That one works, though I am much slower.

Organize all the pictures! Craft all the cute felt baby room stuff! try out all the internet tutorials for baby, maternity and nursery items!

I already bought all the cute fabric, felt and crafting supplies I could find because I have an excuse now. I am excited for meeting our little one :-)

[abbie-normel.livejournal.com]

There was never a baby in my family. I never baby sat so yeah I was not sure what I was going to do with baby but it just seemed to be common sense. Baby will definitely tell you what to do.