mekyria | Madrid with the family

My mum turned 60 and she wanted to go on holiday with all her children, meaning little brother, big brother and me. We had a great couple of days in Madrid, the capitol of Spain. I am however annoyedwhen my mum told us on the way back from the airport that Big Brother feels like he s excluded from our family ever since he moved out when he was 18. And how he feels that I am never asking him how he is doing, or visiting him besides from birthdays.

I ask if I can drop by to see hs house, he tells me he doesn't want to chack agenda's, just ring when I am in the area (I never had to be in his area on account of it being two hours away. I don't wander around much aimlessly when I have a day off)

When I text him, no reply.

When I mail him, no reply

When I ask him face to face how he's doing, one syllable answers.

What pisses me off most is that he never said anything to me about this in the past 16 years. In fact, he still hasn't, this is hearsay from my mother. My brother is very introvert but he is smart enough to figure out that I am not a mindreader. Or old enough to speak up for himself. Holding resentment because I am not meeting the expectations he set for me without telling me hurts my feelings.
The main reason why ths bothers me is because I want him to like me, or at least not ignore me. I always had the feeling that he thought I was a weird person and he was ashamed of me towards his friends.

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