Birthday

[mekyria]

Yesterday was my birthday. We dropped the dog at the dog daycare (how decandent is that?) and we took a bus to the city. We wandered around, did some random shopping and had hot chocolate with whipped cream.

I am very happy that E could take a couple of days off work and that we can spend some time to connect with eachother. It still hurts but it isn't as unreal as it was the first couple of days. I made an appointment at the hospital next Monday, hoping to get a curettage. Waiting for my body to start on it's own in incruciating. It is supposed to be something between menstruation pain but with added contractions.

I invited my parents, aunt and brothers over this Sunday for a small birthday party. I want to keep on doing fun stuff and most of all, I want the procedure before Christmas. Because waiting several days for something painful and sad to happen is more then I can take right now.

Comments

[suzycat.livejournal.com]

Whenever I hear these stories I always wish that they had happened earlier in the process, so the people involved had less time, maybe even no time, to get excited and start preparing. But it is what it is. I hope the process starts by itself now, so you don't need the procedure, but it will be good to have the booking nevertheless as sometimes even with the natural process things get left behind.

[mekyria.livejournal.com]

I was sorry to hear about Lovesub and his wife. Like you said, if we weren't all excited at the prospect then maybe it wouldn't hurt as much. But those emotions are at the heart of why we choose to start a family, despite overwhelming evidence that having children doesn't make you happier in the long run and is a ton of work and means you will forever be worried about your kids being healthy and happy even when they are middle aged.

There is nothing that we can do but accept it. I sometimes hate how life works but I am certain that in the near future I'll love how life works too.

[swas.livejournal.com]

*hugs some more*

I think it would be too hard for me to wait as well. :(

I was at my own gyn yesterday and was overcome with sadness for the two of you (again). It's times like this when I realise extra hard how lucky I am that our little family is doing well so far.

More hugs coming on Tuesday!!!